January 1st, 2012 I knew that year would suck.
I remember saying, "forget 2012, I'm excited for 2013."
Little did I know my New Years Resolution that year
inadvertently became living for the future.
I became the person who would say,
"when it stops snowing I'll be happy..."
"When Spring semester starts it will be easier..."
"During the 7 week break we'll be happier..."
"Fall semester will be better..."
An entire year went by,
and I lived up to my resolution
that it would suck.
But it was my own fault.
A self fulfilling prophesy,
if you will.
There were great things that happened, mind you.
My best friend and I went to Seattle...
I graduated from College...
I left Idaho forever...
As I ended 2012,
broken hearted,
wounded,
and tired...
I thought...
"2013 should be different."
I even went so far as to google
self help techniques on being happy.
And then one day it happened.
I had a light bulb moment.
It hit me.
Life is going to be full of challenges,
some days are going to suck,
some days are going to be full of surprises,
some days are going to blend with each other...
How can I be happy?
How can any of us be happy?
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I started 2013 moving to Las Vegas, Nevada.
I have visited my best friend in Arizona
I have just about completed my student teaching...
I have gotten a job offer...
I have a new place to live...
And what's great about everything?
I may not have enjoyed every moment of this year so far...
But I've lived it.
I was in it.
I wasn't looking toward the future,
I wasn't counting down.
Life is great, you guys.
Even when its not.
Things work out,
or they dont.
You find the love of your life
or you get burned by the fire you thought was burning love.
(Johnny Cash reference, in case you missed it ;) )
(Johnny Cash reference, in case you missed it ;) )
Its only May,
and I cannot wait for today.
(I'm a poet, and I didn't even know it)
