Ok you guys.
I went on a blogging dryspell
But I'm back.
Quick update, before I get to the point of my post.
I love Las Vegas.
I thoroughly enjoyed my time in Idaho
(I have deleted and retyped thoroughly,
lets just say,
I have fond memories)
But I was ready to move on.
I have no sense of longing or regret for college life.
Whether or not I stay in Vegas
is still up in the air.
This year I decided to make decisions
based on how I felt at the time,
or close to the time.
As we all remember,
I had different plans for this year,
and then things got broken,
like my heart.
So I dont make plans anymore.
Not super long term anyway.
Alright.
Heart Flutters.
Last weekend I drove to Arizona
for my good friends Wedding.
I wasn't nervous,
I know I'm healing
so I didn't anticipate any
unnecessary dark and twisty behavior.
Saturday was a beautiful day.
I watched newly married couples
walk out of the temple
filled with happiness
unlike any I had seen
in quite some time.
This weird thing happened.
I almost didn't recognize it
I havent felt it in quite some time.
My heart fluttered.
Ya know,
that weird pain like
but not painful
thing that your heart does.
Sometimes it makes your throat close up
and tears form in your eyes.
I watched young couples celebrate marriage.
I saw my good friend and her now husband
dance and look at each other
with love that I can only pray lasts longer
than a lifetime.
As much as I doubt
the longevity of love...
My heart fluttered.
It took me only 5 days,
and my other good friend talk about her crush
to realize that...
Maybe my heart is fluttering,
because its healing.
Its fixed?
Lets not jump the gun though
I did almost have a bradley cooper moment
where a song came on
and I didn't quite enjoy it...
But guys.
My heart fluttered.
